Am I blogging...or am I pitching my existence?
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Saturday, February 07, 2004 The Pitch: It's like The Song in Casablanca meets The Song in The Graduate! Hola. Gotten behind on my blog-writing and my blog-reading (just read Nancy's blog for the first time this month and was like, Holy Shit). Sad to say, my brain runs like a badly programmed computer: I feed in only a few programming commands; the commands instantly contradict each other; the whole system locks up; rinse; repeat.For example, I know that part of the reason I'm not reading blogs is because I'm not blogging. And I'm not blogging because I'm not doing any of my other writing. But I'm not doing any of my other writing because I swore I wouldn't start writing anything new--rather, I would tackle one of, ahem, five big writing projects I've got going that are completely unfinished. And I'm not doing that because I have to get them cleaned up to read and figure out which one I should start in on. And so I've spent the last month sorting out the novel I was working on between 2001 and 2002, my most productive and disorganized year, and I'm only about a third of the way through proofing and organizing over 110,000 words. The novel that's buried in there--under stream of consciousness journal entries, plotless free-for-all dialogues and endless digressive patter--and the three characters buried with it, is what I really want to be working on. And so, fuck, maybe I'll have to, before finishing the unending clean-up: Just draw up a rough plot based on what I remember happening and get to it. It's frustrating how quickly I can see my writing atrophy in just the two months of not doing it consistently, and it's driving me nuts. This year is my deadline for writing every day, and I'm incredibly squirmy about not having done it yet. Of course, me being me, I went out and got a PS2 Thursday night before taking Edi to the airport. An act of supreme self-sabotage? Or self-confidence? If I'm still not blogging/writing by the end of the month, it'll probably be more likely the former than the latter. posted by Jeff Lester | 4:15 PM | |
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