Am I blogging...or am I pitching my existence?
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Monday, October 31, 2005 The Pitch: It's like The Invisible Man meets Mute Witness! Good morning.My thanks to all of you who asked me when I was going to start updating this thing again, but were kind enough not to ask me why I stopped. (It probably helped that all of you were actually at the wedding.) In some ways, I've been holding off posting again because I'm not sure what direction I actually want to take this blog, but I've also been reluctant because I haven't wanted to try and sum up everything that's happened. I mean, the best day of my life happened while I wasn't blogging. To not try to sum it up feels like a betrayal of the point of a blog, doesn't it? Or does it? But I figure as long as we can agree that I'm not going to be writing about my wedding here because it's too big a subject for me to write about, I'll get back to boring you about what movies I'm seeing, what games I'm playing, and my obsessive-compulsive approach to writing. After all, tomorrow is the first day of Nano 2005. Thanks to the time change, I was able to get up good and early and go write at a nearby cafe, see if I still had the stuff. I wrote eighteen hundred words in 40 minutes. They were very, very crappy. I've still got it! Since moving in with Edi, my writing habits have altered, and it's time to alter them back to something a little more consistent. Thanks to writing for the CE blog, I'm writing between eighteen hundred and three thousand words a week, and I'm still logging about seven thousand words for the monthly newsletter, so my yearly totals are all nice and plump (close to a quarter of a million words a year). But they're barely my words--although reviewing comic books has helped me writing clearly and concisely, it's still just blurting out opinions about other people's work--and it's not the everyday endeavor it should be: I write the newsletter of the course of one week, and I write the blog's reviews every Saturday, and the rest of the time I'm just hanging out with my beautiful wife or playing fucking video games, or spending too much money ordering DVDs off the Internet. It's hard to keep striving for stuff once you get more than you ever thought you'd have--I'm secure, happy and content, and life actually rewards you at this stage of things for paying attention to it, and there are so many easier ways to shut it out than sitting down by yourself and expressing oneself. (And no matter how rewarding that experience can be, it still takes a toll.) One really has to be driven in several different ways to keep pursuing this, after a time. So I'm getting myself back on the trail, and sniffing around to see if I can still find the scent. I'm doing Nano this year as a way to get back to writing every day, and if all goes well, I'll be writing and revising at a regular pace after that. I've told people that this will be my last Nano until I manage to take something I've written and brought it to market; my hope is that this will stave off the urge to be a once-a-year novelist through the miracle of Nanowrimo, and continue to produce. And the entry after this should be a lot less boring, I'm also hoping. Those of you who stuck through all of this will be rewarded with more of the same. At the delightful dinner Edi and I had with Nancy and Chris this weekend, Nancy and I talked a little bit about how, ultimately, people read blogs to hear that person's voice, to get a little snapshot of how that person lives, and what they're thinking. I can do that. Again, thanks for sticking around. More to come. posted by Jeff Lester | 8:32 AM | |
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